Is This What a Breakdown Feels Like?
Is this what a breakdown feels like? This is what I kept asking myself towards the end of 2023. I’m well aware that life has this crazy way of throwing a flurry of challenges our way, but let me tell you, nothing could’ve prepared me for the gut-wrenching events that happened in my life the last few months of 2023. It was like a tidal wave of emotions, years of keeping everything locked up and a series of traumatic experiences all crashing down on me at once. Honestly, I felt like I was on the edge of a complete mental, emotional, and physical breakdown. But you know what? I wasn’t about to let myself go there. So, with grit and determination, I decided to face the mess of grief and trauma head-on.
Facing The Demons and Healing
How does one go about facing your demons and healing from a breakdown? For me, my next step included internet research, Audible books, and lots of YouTube videos. I quickly realized that if I truly wanted to heal those deep-rooted wounds within me, I couldn’t just tiptoe around the pain. Nope, I had to face it head-on. I had to embrace the discomfort, willingly sit with my emotions, and get to the root of their origins. As I put the events of my life together, I began to understand that I was not getting out of this darkness alone.
Breakdown Ahead: Professional Help Required
The lightning bolt Aha moment – I needed professional help to guide me through the overwhelming emotions and trauma that resurfaced within me, leading me to this near-breakdown moment. But here’s the thing: I was dead set against getting into years of traditional talk therapy. With my history of brain damage, I knew deep down that I needed a different approach, something more tailored to my unique needs.
Living With Brain Damage: My Life Life Experience
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That’s when I reached out to Amen Clinics in Dallas, Texas. Their philosophy really struck a chord with me – they believe that healing the whole body starts by assessing the brain. Exactly! Feeling determined to find a solution and avoid a breakdown, I took a leap of faith and reached out to Amen Clinics in early December 2023.
Amen Clinics is all about a comprehensive approach to healing. They use advanced brain assessments and other tests to uncover the secrets behind restoring balance and overall well-being. I knew that understanding the inner workings of my brain was absolutely essential. Think about it: if a specific part of my brain wasn’t firing on all cylinders, no amount of talk therapy or sheer willpower could truly heal or improve my situation.
Fear and Hope
I’ll admit that embarking on this journey was a mix of fear and hope. The truth about my brain’s condition was waiting for me, and I was ready to face it head-on. I wanted a path to healing and recovery. It was that crucial first step to give myself the grace and compassion that I so desperately needed.
So, my friend, this is just the beginning of my journey. In the next part, I’ll dive deeper into the assessment, discoveries, and healing processes. I’ll also share some valuable insights on finding grace and self-compassion amid grief and trauma.
Is this what a breakdown feels like? This is what I kept asking myself towards the end of 2023. I’m well aware that life has this crazy way of throwing a flurry of challenges our way, but let me tell you, nothing could’ve prepared me for the gut-wrenching events that happened in my life the last few months of 2023.
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